“life will be better in spring”

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"Mm..well if we were handling everything well, it would be tough to see where our trust in God faithfulness and where we really fall short and need His guidance..? If all our decisions were best ones I think we would easily stop counting on Him haha cos I feel like I'm starting to do that :/ so..yeah good struggle haha"

Kept it as it is from my friend.
That spoke through to my heart and my iniquities.

I have surrendered my life to God.
That means every single area of my life, even my love life.
I chose to follow You and I have to trust and have confidence in everything You are doing for me,
even in times where it seems to be silence.

Your ways are higher, which is the way I will always seek and rely upon.
Even when people do not understand, it is You who I will follow.  



When we have finished...

conquering absence with a cell phone
conquering heat with air condition
conquering winglessness with air planes
conquering distances with transportation

we still end up dealing with death and the evil in our hearts.

Many times I find myself wanting to do something but I prevent myself from doing it. 



Dyslexia.
It is a pain in the ass being dyslexic.
I even had trouble spelling the word 'dyslexic'.

The worst part is I bloody hell want to read like a normal person, but I can't. It takes forever for me to fully understand and to finish a book.

But I've had it since young. Kept wondering if it would have been better if my parents were not so naive to think that there was nothing wrong to me even though my primary 3 tuition teacher suspected that something was wrong because I kept daydreaming in class.

What if I had treatment earlier?
Would I have had already been more accomplished by now?
Would I be studying law/medicine now?

Sometimes I think that God placed this upon me to limit my intelligence so that I would not become an evil genius.

Of all said, I'm happy that it turned out the way it is. It has made me the person I am today through all the struggles. It is actually a gift. I just need to unlock it, and God has the key. Just waiting for him to unlock it.

Oh man, it has been about a year since I blogged. I doubt anyone reads this blog anyway but just typing out stuff helps me with my thought process. The last I blogged here was Feb 2012. Since then so much has happened, way too much actually.

Hmm, lets just do a quick history of what happened chronologically since then...
1) I ORD-ed. Feels good. But kinda miss army days.
2) Served in church. "Why so HEART one". "More than this".
3) God called me to go full time. Scary at first. Now, just seeking directions.
4) PassionAC. So utterly blessed to be part of it. Sang in front of 300 plus people for the first time.
5) Hong Kong X 2. Phuket X 1. Love to chill.
6) Met a really wonderful girl :) Sadly, I'm not ready because I'm not even ready for God and He has   other plans for me for now.
7) Found out I am dyslexic. Nothing big. I just process differently.
8) I'm studying in UK, York now. A beautiful place to study in:) All God's blessings.
9) Currently, I am so into Apologetics, which is the communication and defence of Christ.

I have came such a long way, grown so much in more ways than I could imagine. I am filled with joy as I look back at all the wonderful things that happened in my life for the past year or so. Can't help but to feel somewhat in awe of God, and wanting to give thanks.

I shall try to keep this blog alive from now on!

Don't let the world around you squeeze you into its own mould, but let God re-mould your mind from within, so that you may prove in practice that the plan of God for you is good, meets all his demands and moves towards the goal of true maturity.

-J.B. Phillips

We Christians often consider the issue of developing godliness mistakenly think it depends on rapturous spiritual experiences. Others believe it must depend on disciplined experiences. Relying solely on either is wrong. Spiritual experiences are to be enjoyed but not as the basis for spiritual growth. And being disciplined does not show our gratitude for the GRACE that saved us. 

Wooo, blogspot just changed their inter-face. Naise. It's nice and elegant.






Either He was a lunatic, a liar, or He was Who He says He was.


At the end of the day, I come back to Your precious words.
"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight"
A verse that I hold dearly onto it. It tells us to surrender to His sovereignty and that His ways are holy and worthy to be praised and worship with everything we have.
Praise You! the almighty God of wonders.





I'm gonna keep this short. Started off with stomach flu last Friday which I only recovered this Thursday. But started to have cough,sore-throat and phlegm on Wednesday till now. The worst combination ever. I can't spam Strepsil because it'll give me phlegm. I can't drink cold water because I have cough. So I drink warm water for to sooth my cough but it started hurting my throat badly. wow. And I have to recover by Sunday night. My left eye feels weird too, super watery.

Though I didn't have a good week but I am sure happy about my sister:) My sister went through surgery to remove the bone that was contaminated with cancer cells and was replaced with metal bone. It went really really well. The doctor said he was very satisfied with the surgery and it had not affected a particular nerve near her knee. I was jubilant when I heard that. Thank God for looking after her and thank you all for those who prayed for her:) I haven't got a chance to go visit her yet cause I'm sick ;( but yeah, she recovering really quickly!

Thank You Father for Your grace and mercy : D


really cool simple video about a book.haha





"When Jesus died as an innocent victim.. the most sweeping historical revolution in the world, namely, the emergence of an empathy for victims" -Philip Yancey

I started off really strongly, completed my first 10 km in 55 mins, which I was very happy about it because it was under 1 hr! Continued running happily, looking at the planes, checking out the pretty girls, the handsome guys, the fat, the thin, the old, the young, the really young ones, the volunteers, the cars with the people in it cheering us, the moon..etc.. it was pretty fascinating with the types of people who joins marathon. But at the same time my stomach felt really weird because of the things I took before the run. I ate 2 bananas & noodle slightly before 2 hrs of the run, and power gel, 100 plus and water during the run. It was a weird mixture that made my stomach feel weird.

At the 16.5km mark, my left leg cramped up. At the 17.5 mark, my right leg almost cramped up. Couldn't really run after that. My knees and left ankle was hurting badly. So I was mainly walking and trying to jog for the last 3-4km. It was so bad that at 18km mark I asked myself 'why am I doing this?!', didn't really have an answer. I continued pushing on. I was really pissed off at that time because I was looking for SALONPAS spray from the volunteers, but none of them had it! Shouldn't that the organizers foresee that people's legs were gonna cramp up? I believe could have done it by 2hr15 if they had provided the spray.

At 19.5 km, I was limping, dragging my right leg along, was adamant to finish it within 2hr15 no matter what. I saw the 2:15 mins pacer guy run pass along side me, clapping his hand saying "2hr15 mins, follow me!!! Lets go!" I was damn pumped up but I only lasted for 100m before I started walking again. hahah. Quite a sad sight, watching your 'goal' run away.

Managed to finish it in 2hr32 I think? Unofficially. Totally forgot to stop my stopwatch. It was disappointing, but it was sure darn satisfying after completing my first 21 km marathon. I really need more training and clock more distance to prevent further cramp ups for my future marathons. Next up, AHM 21km, aiming for 2hrs10mins. Nextnext up, Standard Charted 42km! I will try for 4hrs 30mins.

Give it time and it really does review certain truth that you and I may be searching for. The sort of truth that feels like a revelation. Though the time taken is often not as enjoyable as it might be, but it's a building and learning process that is essential.

I have figured out some answers that I have been searching for, and it took me a long time. Long long time. Something that was so evident yet it never did occur to me earlier. I feel so naive for always blaming myself.
All I am going to say here is that things change and people come and go and it wasn't your fault because you remained as awesome as you are.

True fact of life.